An Open Letter to Myself...

Hi there,

I've been watching you beat yourself up for way too long and it's time for me to say something about it. Here's the short version: stop it! You worry about people getting close to you to end up hurting you but the truth is, not even your worst enemy can hurt you worse than you hurt yourself. It's time for you to see yourself through a different perspective.

First, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. Accept it. Believe it. You are more than your skin and your hair. Long hair is not the be all, end all of beauty. There are gorgeous women rocking short hairstyles all the time. The difference between them and you is that you don't realize you are a beautiful creation of God. He made no mistakes when He created you. Your skin is not hideous, so stop saying that too. If you were the only person in the world with Psoriasis, would there be a name for it? Would the doctors know what it is? No. Lets be logical. Millions of people have this skin disorder. But it doesn't have them. Another difference between them and you. 

Second, YOU ARE STRONG. Just because you don't display strength the way your mother does or the way she wants you to, doesnt mean you are weak. Someone else wouldn't have survived what you've been through, yet you are still here. What doesn't break you makes you stronger. Crying doesn't make you weak, it cleanses your soul and everyone cries once in a while.

Third, IT'S ABOUT QUALITY NOT QUANTITY. Stop chasing popularity. You think you're lonely sometimes now? Nothing will make you feel lonelier than you already do like being surrounded by a bunch of fakes and backstabbers. Seek out genuine people who will rock with you through the good and the bad. People who love you for who you are, not what they can get from you. Don't be afraid to walk away from people who only want to use you. Trust me, you'd rather be alone than to be constantly taken advantage of. Protect your heart, but don't build barriers around it nobody can get pass because all people aren't bad. 

And while we are on the subject of people, STOP WORRYING ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF YOU. Come out of Junior High School. Stop worrying about people talking about you. You aren't 12 years old anymore, you are a 29 year old woman. Remarks don't pay your bills and everybody has flaws. Remember being bullied or teased has nothing to do with you but with the person who's doing the bullying or teasing.

Lastly, LOVE YOURSELF!!! Value yourself. Spoil yourself. Be your own best friend. Know your worth. Shower yourself with just as much love as you do with your loved ones. Why shouldn't you? You are a smart, beautiful woman with a loving heart and a kind soul. You're understanding; people can talk to you and you don't judge them. You are a good person and you should embrace that. Embrace YOU.

I hope you will take to heart what I said. You have begun to see that when you change your perspective from negative to positive thoughts, good things begin to happen. Stay the course and keep the faith. This is only the beginning. The best is yet to come.

I love you,

Me