Holiday Madness

Long checkout lines and empty shelves that echo throughout many department stores and supermarkets. These are the tale tale signs that holiday madness is upon us. What should be a whimsical and festive occasion turns into stress filled torture; scrambling to find food, gifts and parking spaces. Television that you miss during the work week and look forward to seeing gets replaced with a never ending marathon of of holiday movies and sports games. God help you if you're not fond of either. The childhood memories of magic and allure during the season have been replaced with the adult reality of decorating, cooking, shopping and time management.

As a child, you never had to worry about how holidays happened. All you knew was that on Thanksgiving day there was a buffet of food complete with a turkey waiting before you. On Christmas morning, after being good like Santa told you to be, all you had to do was run to the tree and there would be presents of all sizes before you. As adults, holidays no longer "just happen" for us anymore. We have to make them happen. And when you have to play the head chef for 15 in your kitchen or even worse, the jolly fat guy with the white beard in a red suit, holidays very quickly become overwhelming.

But before you drown in the roaring waters of holiday madness, stop. Take a moment to observe the feeling around you. That warm, fuzzy feeling when you see pictures of a Thanksgiving feast or Christmas lights around a home. Although we outgrow and grow into different roles we play during this time, that feeling never really goes away. It only gets buried under annoyance and responsibility. So this year, take a moment to feel that emotion again... because that feeling is truly what the holiday season is all about.

A Kindred Soul

I am a kindred soul
looking for a friend.
Someone to talk to
to make and share memories with.
I am deficient in companions.
My ups and downs I go through...
Alone.
As I continue to search for a friend
I admire and envy
the unbreakable bonds of others.
Is it my fate to be lonely?
To share the joys and pains of my life
with only me, myself and I?
What would become of my soul then?
As it searches, possibly in vain,
for a dear friend.

Genuine

Hello love...
The pleasure to finally meet you is all mine
As I gaze at you with love and admiration in my eyes.
I reach out to touch you
And when your hand meets mine,
it makes my decision feel right.
The choice to see you tonight.
Having been promised a great time,
you don't give me anything less.
True to your word, I like that.

Your loving embrace
makes me feel so calm.
I don't feel like a stranger in your arms,
but like a friend.
Your beautiful aura illuminates from you
like a star glowing in the night sky.
A star... that's what you are indeed.
But time has escaped me,
and our meeting is now done.
I leave a piece of my heart with you.
A token of how I adore you.
Through acclaim and adversity,
you remain the same.
True to yourself, I respect that.

I Truly Did

At this moment I realize
that I truly did love you,
but now you're gone.
I went about living
taking for granted that you'll always be there.
It wasn't until you left that I realized,
I truly did care.
I watched you face a torrential storm,
not fully aware of your fears.
Looking back at it now,
I can truly see your tears.
Despite it all you still loved me,
after I left you, forsaken.
I wish I could have a second chance,
my heart is truly aching.
I miss you old friend
you were something special
And in this moment I realize
that I truly did love you.
And I would love nothing more
than to tell you...
But now you're gone.

To My Former Crush:

I used to love you once.
You entered my dreams and fantasies,
and at one time you belonged to me.
I couldn't get enough of you.
I always had to see your face,
hear your voice or
have your picture.
You were beautiful to me
pure perfection,
my eyes blinded to your faults.
In my eyes you could do no wrong.
Once hailed as my angel,
you have now fallen from grace
as I can now see your mistakes.
My stary dreams and sunshine fantasies
exist no more.
Replaced by the undeniable reality
of your true self.
I will always want the best for you,
because your good nature does shine through your faults.
But to you, my former crush,
I no longer love you
Like I once used to.

Dear Marlon...

Last night when I came home, I wanted to write and dedicate a beautiful poem to you. But it appears that our encounter has left me at a loss for words. So I will improvise, and hope that you enjoy it.

Being in your line of work, I know you meet people who tell you they love you all the time and are your "biggest fans" . On your twitter page your timeline quickly fills with tweets from adoring supporters. So how can someone like me stand out and express my feelings to you?

I’ll start by saying that this event occurred during one of the most difficult times in my life. Good times for me are far and few in between right now. So I felt compelled to seize this opportunity despite my current situation. I’m happy that I did because I had a fabulous time. From the minute I saw you emerge your aura shined as bright as a star in the sky.  A star... yes that is a fitting analogy because that is truly what you are. God blessed you with a beautiful spirit and I'm blessed to have experienced it in person, if only briefly. Thank you for taking the time out of your busy night to meet me. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.

Please stay just the way you are. Don't ever change. Some celebrities become hard to stomach because they're so arrogant, aloof and ungrateful. It's good to know that you and your family is not like that. Its a joy to be a fan of yours because you are open and loving. Maybe the reason why I didn't feel nervous, or turn into a fanatic is because you made the mood so calm and casual. It was like we were or could have been friends.

I love you. I love the talent you posses and the heart that sustains you. I love that you remain true to yourself and your roots no matter where fame takes you. You are a beautiful person inside and out, and I hope to meet you again someday. I can't claim to be your biggest fan, but I can say that you will have a fan for life in me.

*sigh* I still owe you a lovely poem, when words stop failing me.

Love. <3