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Sunday, November 24, 2013

Who Am I?

Its a question I get asked often... who am I? When I go on interviews, its disguised as "tell me about yourself". I draw a blank. I dont know where to begin or what to disclose. How much do you really want to know about me? Just the good? Or do you want the bad and the ugly too? Are you just asking me to be asking, or do you really care to know? If I tell you, will you use it against me? If I confide in you, will you betray me?

Anyway, Im giving myself an experiment to describe myself. So here goes... who am I?

  • Im a New York native, born and raised.
  • Im an African American woman
  • Im a college graduate, with a BA in Psychology
  • Im a person who loves to write and be creative
  • Im understanding
  • Im open minded
  • Im loyal
  • Im compassionate
  • I treasure memories and memorable people
  • I open to adventure and meeting new people
  • Im loving
  • Im a good listener
  • Im a fast learner
  • I give advice when its requested
  • Im someone who loves to travel
So thats all the good stuff. And if thats all you want to know, then Id advise you to stop reading here. As much as Id like to be all smiles and good vibrations, I have my low days. And on those days, this is who I am:

  • I get depressed
  • I overthink
  • I worry
  • I feel empty and lonely
  • I feel rejected and left out
  • I feel like Im being judged
  • I feel inferior
  • I feel lost
  • I feel unwanted
  • I cry
And it takes time for me to rebound. While Im doing that I listen to music, observe my surroundings, write, and just take time to myself to look in myself and reflect. When Im wrong I apologize and make amends. When Im right I dont argue back, I'll let you see for yourself eventually. Im not narcissistic or egotistical, I just want to be noticed and loved back by all those I love. Im not anti-social or aloof, I just like to spend time with myself every now and then.

So thats the long answer to who I am. I guess the short answer would be... Im a work in progress.